Friday, August 22, 2014

Got The Third Place on The Mini Contest!!! XD

Well, last time I in this posting I've told you about how I struggle to finish the artwork above only for 48 hours and broke my own record :D

Did I win?

Did I win?
Did I win?

Well...honestly...a lot of people joining the contest. Maybe about 20 people? For a mini contest on Deviant Art, it's a real number, Dude! Sooo... after I'm waiting for this whole week finally they announce the result THIS NIGHT.


I got the 3rd place! Hoooraaay? XD

Strangely I kinda got a premonition that I'll get third place >_< Kinda like a deja vu or something? So when I did my regular pray this afternoon suddenly I remembered this contest (weeell...I know I shouldn't think about anything else whenever I'm doing regular bad :p :p), and I was worried that I won't get any place. I was highly confident actually. But as time went by my confidence level dropped. Especially after my mum chose other artwork as her favorites when I showed her the gallery of entries >n<...

So... while I was doing my regular pray a sudden thought passed by, "Maybe I'll at least got the third place?"

And IT'S TRUE! AND THAT WHAT MAKES IT LITTLE SCARY! (do I have certain 6th sense power??? LOL)

Well if you ask me whether it's worthy considering the amount of time I spent for finishing the artwork... depends on...

My father might be just snorted and said, "Only get that???"


But I guess it's a good step forward for me, that some people miles away across the ocean are rather choose my artwork among the others to win the 3rd place. I'll have to be grateful. And the most important, I have to train my skill more, so more people will acknowledge my art (including my own dearly parents...pfff). I have to train my pencil color artwork, so it could be compete against those digital artworks (the first place and the second place were done digitally, and they're really smooth and good...)

Well...this is the second time I win something from Deviant Art... (hey, when was the first? I'll tell you later xD)


More competitions I plan to enter, I hope I'll have the luck just like this one, probably better?

Thank you God! Thank you Fleur! Thank you the judges! 

Monday, August 18, 2014

What I Hate

Since I'm being a shut in, I often felling hurt for not a really significant reason every time I open my Facebook...

I hate people I know who likes to post their GPA on FB. Saying that they're cum laude, got straight A, whatever.

I never did that though I've got some A's. Posting your GPA feels like you wanna show to others that you're much smarter than the rest...on paper.

I also hate when someone being lovey-dovey on FB. That's stupid, ridiculous, and makes people want to think since when you turn to be an exhibitionist. LOL...

I hate it...

When I finally posting my artworks on FB, many friends like it and comment how they miss me.


What a sweet lip-service.

I also hate my parents who always make me as if I'm not worthy enough. How they never appreciate my achievements... I hate them...

Welcome to the dark side of me.

I think I need to produce more artworks so I'll be lighten up a bit.

Saturday, August 16, 2014

48 Hours Draw (Breaking My Own Record!!!)

Fleur and Yumiko, the OCs of some artists in Deviant Art. Seems like they are a real couple in the real life

I draw this picture, only for about 48 hours! Precisely I started drawing from 14th August, 10.00 p.m till today's 09.00 a.m. I felt like I was possessed to draw that fast (it is considered pretty rapid for me who's really slow at drawing that sometimes I could even need months and years to finish one piece of artwork!)

This is drawn by using reference. Of course with many modifications as usual. When I started drawing the cats, then all the fun began! XD I don't wanna to make the couple alone just by themselves anyway. It's like my own personal policy to keep my arts still PG 13+ and under hahaha :D (I could say that this is my most intimate pose... that's why we need those cats around ahaha)

I have to draw many straight lines here oh my...(and finally I use my ruler to the max!). Also Iadd so many objects there. After I finished them all this morning, I felt like my right fingers went numb and felt like I have to sleep for days to recharge!

Basically I'm both relieved and quite satisfied with the result, yet the grainy looks on all over place makes me want to mourn X(

I really want to create a smooth arts using my pencil color someday. Ugh! Have to train more!

Well, so now I have to start pray and cross my fingers so I'll be the winner and get the prize as well ahahah :D I really want to show to my family that I could get something from my own art :D

Wish me luck guyz!

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

WIP I'm Doing Now

Yep, now I'm drawing a fanart of CLAMP's X/1999 Dragons of Earth and one training doodle featuring Rayvision's OCs: Himiko and Momo Tsugunaga. Yeah, SHUT UP AND DRAW! DRAW OR DIE! DRAW TILL DAWN! XD XD XD

Tuesday, August 12, 2014

Burn The Neighbor

Seriously I really hate my neighbors. Especially the big house in front of us. It is a boarding house for many night women, those who are working shady jobs in club, bar, karaoke, etc. I hate them all. Their guests like to make silly commotion every night. They women always laugh maniacally like some bitches witches (even though when everybody should be sleeping in this time). The men like to play some firecrackers in the middle of the night. But the security never warn them!!! (so why do we keep paying them???)

Also, there are some black people from Eastern region who like to get drunk, and playing tag while shouting like savage tribes in the night. They should be some college students who follow certain program here but the only thing they do in this city is just making stir.

I hate them all! I wish they are burnt. Don't they have any social awareness? Don't they themselves feel disturbed if they are in our situations???

I hate them. I hate the security. I hate people here who just being ignorant. The only person who ever scolded and warned them is my dad. But dad has no energy to keep doing that every single night! Whereas those "devils" act as if they are challenging other person to warn them again and again...

People like them should not be exist in this already rotten world!

Saturday, August 9, 2014


Could something cure this loneliness?
Could someone fill this emptiness?
For I'm sure that I was born not into nothingness...

Friday, August 8, 2014

"Deviant" Days

I'm drawing again. And it works better to relieve my anxiety and restlessness than just reading manga (or editing old artworks LOL). I upload my artworks on a site named Deviant Art. Also on drawcrowds, kreavi, and pinterest. However, it's really hard to get popular there :sad :sad: (except for Deviant Art where I have had 4000s page views and more than 50 watchers). Maybe because there are groups on DA that enhance the new artists to getting popular and get along with other users. here are my two last artworks:

In this artwork there's Shirayuki Himeka san, Yuina, and meh. You don't have any idea how long I had to spent to finish this one (laziness is the main factor here :p) The background took longest time. And my favorite part is her golden blond hair.  Unfortunately the paper becomes dull due to the long delay (maybe also because there're too many objects there?). But I'm relieved I finally finish this one.

The pose reference is from Katagiri Ikumi. I added some dragonflies to make it more artistic and distinct. This is Yuina. To draw the red dragonflies I was really helped by pencil color tutorial of Ian Wongkar. 

I uploaded these two artworks almost in the same time. But just like my expectation, the second one draws more attention in DA. In fact, the faves are increasing rapidly I'm surprised XD Must be because of the unique pose XD... I'm really happy with the results and I like dragonflies now. I have to draw them again in my next artworks...

Well...once I start drawing, I barely can't stop it. Now I'm working on another artwork and I have tons inside my head. So I spend most of my days in front of laptop, drawing by using references. Also I spend most of my times mingling in Deviant Art.  Sometimes my mother asks me to do something, then I take some rests, and after that drawing again. I don't know how long this thing will happen. But as long as I'm living and healthy now, what more I could ask?

I wonder if my writings and artworks will bring me to the world outside...again


Just that for today

See ya